I just recently read a blog entry by my mom and it shocked me.... I could not see my mom going through that alone and scared. It kills me knowing that no one seemed to care what she was going through, the pain she had inside. It makes me angry at the world to see how no one cares unless it involves them getting something. There is few people who do not think this way one person who is my mom. I can admit I think this way from time to time but not all the time. I am saying this from the heart and not just some B.S. (bull shit)to make people feel sorry for me. I try to help my mom feel better by checking up on her because I do not live with her and I know that it hurts her to stay alone on the holidays and it kills me to leave her alone. But I have to finish school here then I will be able to go back into her loving arms where I belong. I know you are probably reading this and getting bored already but this is how I feel right now so just let me vent. I was on the phone with my mom just a few days ago and she burst into tears it was hard for me not to cry and let my emotions out but instead I just let her vent. What she said on the phone was "People only talk to me and be nice to me when they want something. But not you mami (her nick name for me) you are the only one who talks to me to check up on me to say "Hey mah how the hell are you?" or "How was your day mah?" or to just say whats up." She said other things I can not say because it is to personal and I will let her write about it if she wants.
But that's enough venting for now. Keep the ones you love close and you might find out something new about them. Love you guys. Later!
